Thirty Years In, and I’m Just Getting Started
I’ve been moving people in their bodies since I was twelve years old.
Dance first. Then fitness. Then yoga found me, and eventually Ayurveda found me through Yoga, and somewhere in the middle of all of that, I found myself. Over and over again. That’s over thirty years of learning how the body holds us, and how it can free us, when we know how to listen.
I’ve been showing up online for a while now, but mostly in the background. Posting here and there, sharing a little, then pulling back. Wondering whether anyone was really listening, whether what I had to say was worth saying, whether I was the right person to say it. You know that feeling. Most of us do.
But something has shifted for me lately. I’m done showing up quietly.
Here’s something I’ve been saying to my students for years, and I’m ready to say it louder now:
Yoga is so much more than a posture on a piece of rubber.
It is mind training. It is the practice of slowing down the constant swirling of thoughts long enough to actually hear yourself think. It is learning how to position yourself in life, not just on a mat, to meet the moment you are actually in rather than the one you are dreading or rehearsing.
And Ayurveda? Not a dosha quiz. Not a diet plan. It is a living framework for understanding your body, your seasons, your tendencies, and how to work with them instead of against them.
Together, these two are a bridge between ancient wisdom and your own inner knowing. A compass, really. One that helps you stop looking outside yourself for the answers and start trusting what you already, somewhere deep down, already know.
I love that word for it, compass, because before my son was born I used to compete in multi-sport adventure races. My team and I would head out for upwards of forty hours with a backpack, a map, and a compass, moving through the course on foot, by bike, or by paddle, finding checkpoints along the way. The compass didn’t tell us how to feel about the terrain. It just helped us orient. That’s exactly what these practices do.
When the pandemic hit in March 2020, I did what I could to keep my studio alive. I adapted, pivoted, got creative, took on debt, and held on for over two years through the closures and the regulations and all the uncertainty that came with them. But in September 2022, I had to pull the plug and shut the doors for good.
It was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done.
And it was also, in a way, the thing that pushed me to find a new direction. I started teaching online here and there, recording and uploading videos, figuring it out as I went. Then in January of this year, AUM@home officially launched as a community on Skool — a virtual space for women who want real, sustainable Yoga and Ayurveda practices that fit into a real, complicated, sometimes overwhelming life.
Not perfection. Not a destination. Just the practice of returning to yourself, again and again, in whatever way you can manage today.
The women who find their way there are capable, intelligent, caring women who are carrying a lot. They’re not looking for another thing to add to their lives. They’re looking for permission to slow down, and something that actually helps when they do. That’s what I try to offer.
I’ll be honest with you. I don’t have it all figured out. I am not a flawless practitioner. I have hard days and distracted days and days where I forget everything I teach. But I show up anyway. And that’s exactly what I hope to inspire through my teaching.
Not because I have all the answers. But because I’ve learned that showing up consistently, honestly, without waiting until you feel ready, is the practice itself.
So here I am. Showing up a little more visibly, a little more often.
If any of this resonates, you’re welcome to come explore what we’re working on inside AUM@home. There’s a free seven-day trial if you want to get a feel for the community before you commit to anything. I’ll meet you there.
xoM
